An Update ...

I realise i always start my blogs with, So it has been a long time... and if i am right the ration of my blogging activity would be at least 2 times a year, unless something interesting happens like the phase of " Meet My Match"

However, work has been awesome and has taken up so much of my time. I love it, but it is different and hence the way i Love it is also different. I no longer have a "work Gang" like the gals in HP... boy i miss them so much. There are no heart to heart talks, there is no hugs in the mornings, there is no "OMG gossip and Drama" hence worklife in the office is totally and utterly boring in a positive sense. But i love the meeting new people every day part... I love that i do not think and let the universe take over when I'm training bit and I love the hugs that the participants give me at the end of the day. The room is always loaded with Love and that is awesome.

But the honest truth... I've never been so alone... I've never been surronded by so many people yet been lonely. The only time I feel that I connect with someone is when I'm with family - which is rare coz we are all working... Satya and Kamsie... which is rare coz we are all working and sumi and julie which is rare becoz Sumi is studying and jules has her own life.

But i guess i need to be grateful for this, the fact that Swami is teaching me to live alone.To really be with myself, and i know i need this. Ive been in a swarm of people my whole life, and Ive never really gotten to know Roshini.

Ive stopped having plans for the future, Life changes everyday... tht living in the future now seems almost impossible. HE is so quick to show me that nothing i imagine can happen. Im forced to stop imagining and do nothing but live in the NOW. And be present. Im just wondering if living in the NOW suppose to liberate u ... then y do i still feel so lonely....