I'M THERE

I am at that place finally... Where ? that place, the place where I have always wanted to be in. After years and years .. ok lah maybe just 20 years... of trying to get there i have finally arived. And how do i know this? These are the reasons...

1.well i was looking at pictures of the walk for values and the video from it and I did not cringe when i looked at my pictures. I did not think i looked too fat or my face looked bloated or anything. I was just happy and i looked at myself from a third person perspective and i thought.. boy that looks like a girl who is having fun :D

2. I do not "like" any one guy at the moment. No one none at all, i mean i still think some of them are cute and all but nothing beyond that. I thought it was just a phase, u know.. 2 weeks ago when i told Krish this, i told her wait till the weekend is over and ill sing u a new song. But no It has finnally happened. I am happy and i feel complete.

3. I found my inner voice.. found it. Ok found it is not really the word, Swami has been talking to me for a very long time now, but i just did not realise it was HIM, i have had many of these conversations.. loads of them when im alone, but i always thought u know i was talking to myself, now i know i really was talking to the SELF :) It makes me so happy to know he has been listening for years, and that many of the decisions ive taken were really waht he wanted.
It also makes me feel so safe and loved, and Okie to be alone because i know im never really alone:)

So yes i've made it , Im there... ive broken the chain .. now im just gonna sit back and enjoy the ride :)

i read in this book Eat, pray love where the author quoted the geetha

It is better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an immitation of someones life to perfection..

so stumble and rise in my destiny i will but living someone elses dream ... this i will not do .. !!