Again and again and Again ....
I have realised that there is a lesson that keeps repeating in my life. A lesson i don't seem to be able to get right. Its not that i started late. I did not study the last minute for this one. In fact i think i first started leaning this lesson when i was 5. There seems to be a steady pattern in the way the lesson goes, kind of like a add maths question, the type that no matter how hard you try you just dont get. And just like the add math questions I am really very very close to throwing in the towel.. and saying Screw it all.. I dont Care !! im not gonna use Add maths any way...
But in this situation i am caught, i seem to really like the subject and till date i think ive gone through quite a number of excercises.Read the rest of the blog and u might see a few excercises ive tried out. Some were easier than the others, some i knew there was no hope to begin with but yet tried to tackle the question because i loved the challenge, some were the type you teacher Gave you and some were the type you found somewhere in the daily paper. There was even one that was done long distance on the internet.. wait make that 2.
So here is the deal.. i seem to be getting it wrong at stage 3 ..i figure. Because stage one ... the finding of the question.. i dont do that.. the stupid question finds me... i bet the "teacher" loves it when a test is handed out. Stage 2 ... this is the part i totally enjoy.... Love in fact... its fun, u kinda like get it u know, u have hope that you just might be able to solve this one. get it right finally. then comes stage 3, when suddely you get blur, u dont seem to understand the equation again. Then u keep trying , erasing trying again because you dont want to give up... u are afraid that the Teacher might not give you a new equation to solve, what if this was your last chance and you failed the exam, you will have to drop the paper all together . and wait for a whole new school term to resit it. Because you know as long as you have the desire to take that paper, you will need to repeat the semester.
But the more you try the worse it becomes. You start to panic, because the paper is getting thinner with all your erasing and the exam might just end.
You Stop Because you know its not worth your time. You are just gonna ruin everything. You say to yourself this is not the right topic. Maybe id do better in some other equation. If i try too hard i'll just tear the page.
But you know deep down inside that there is nothing wrong with the equation, its just that you have no clue what the theory is. Perhaps you will never know... perhaps you will have to drop this paper and repeat it in the next samester. U tell the "teacher " that you need time and all his love and guidance because you are really Not good at this ..
And just as you give up.... He sends another equation ... and the cycle repeats itself .....
I have realised that there is a lesson that keeps repeating in my life. A lesson i don't seem to be able to get right. Its not that i started late. I did not study the last minute for this one. In fact i think i first started leaning this lesson when i was 5. There seems to be a steady pattern in the way the lesson goes, kind of like a add maths question, the type that no matter how hard you try you just dont get. And just like the add math questions I am really very very close to throwing in the towel.. and saying Screw it all.. I dont Care !! im not gonna use Add maths any way...
But in this situation i am caught, i seem to really like the subject and till date i think ive gone through quite a number of excercises.Read the rest of the blog and u might see a few excercises ive tried out. Some were easier than the others, some i knew there was no hope to begin with but yet tried to tackle the question because i loved the challenge, some were the type you teacher Gave you and some were the type you found somewhere in the daily paper. There was even one that was done long distance on the internet.. wait make that 2.
So here is the deal.. i seem to be getting it wrong at stage 3 ..i figure. Because stage one ... the finding of the question.. i dont do that.. the stupid question finds me... i bet the "teacher" loves it when a test is handed out. Stage 2 ... this is the part i totally enjoy.... Love in fact... its fun, u kinda like get it u know, u have hope that you just might be able to solve this one. get it right finally. then comes stage 3, when suddely you get blur, u dont seem to understand the equation again. Then u keep trying , erasing trying again because you dont want to give up... u are afraid that the Teacher might not give you a new equation to solve, what if this was your last chance and you failed the exam, you will have to drop the paper all together . and wait for a whole new school term to resit it. Because you know as long as you have the desire to take that paper, you will need to repeat the semester.
But the more you try the worse it becomes. You start to panic, because the paper is getting thinner with all your erasing and the exam might just end.
You Stop Because you know its not worth your time. You are just gonna ruin everything. You say to yourself this is not the right topic. Maybe id do better in some other equation. If i try too hard i'll just tear the page.
But you know deep down inside that there is nothing wrong with the equation, its just that you have no clue what the theory is. Perhaps you will never know... perhaps you will have to drop this paper and repeat it in the next samester. U tell the "teacher " that you need time and all his love and guidance because you are really Not good at this ..
And just as you give up.... He sends another equation ... and the cycle repeats itself .....
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